My eldest might have K tonight, and since the other half is on night shifts, am considering the possibility of staying home for night.
Reasons why I am worried:
If I wake at 3am (which I am likely too) I will realise I’m alone, and think Shit, and panic will come. I have the option going on in my head to, either get out of a warm bed, dressed, grab a bike and peddle like mad to dads, hoping police or no one see me, pray that dads gate is not frozen and I can get safely indoors.
Try and ring other half, so he can reassure me I’m not going mad, and hopefully the anxiety will die down, but can’t guarantee he can be on other end of phone for me.
So I have taken the step to ask my mate for her home number, explaining what I’m doing and that I might need to ring or at least have her number knowing she’s about for safety reasons in my head.
She has given me her number, and also said she may pop round to keep me company, and there’s even a sofa at hers if I need it.
Easier to say yes I can do this, while its 9:30am….we will see what happens tonight