Have come up with a new plan, and so far it seems to be working ok.
Instead of just going up the road say heading to Long Sutton, and seeing how far I get, I have to set out an exposure plan and do it in steps.
It’s no good just driving up the road because anxiety is going to set in, then I want to turn back, and I then feel a failure and not accomplished anything 😦
So I made a plan, a route if you like on the whole journey from Wisbech to the butterfly park and wrote down at each stage what my fear factor would be. The idea is to go to a stage that provides small anxiety and to sit it out for a certain set time.
My 1st try was great, I got to my destination, with not a high fear factor as i first thought, we took a walk, got back to car and I was able to go further up the road to see where I would be going the next time.
unfortunately as with the panic beast the next day the timings where all wrong, I was’t 100% me and I failed and came home, though saying that I did reach the destination, just came straight home though.
Next day we went again, and it was a success, again took a walk, and back to car to go further up the road, and was very pleased with myself as crossed the river, saw something new with my eyes, and Things are not really that far and scary.
Since Mista is on a lot of work shifts, I’ve been working on things in the home front, I’ve mostly been left on my own a lot in the day with just me and K as my dad is out at work, Mista is on 12 hour shifts so he isn’t home till 8pm.
Twice now I have in the day gone back with K for a few hours, got our bikes, and when it was 7 bike back home and wait for Mista.
Things seem to be getting easier for me, I’m on the right track finally.